just got back home quite some time back.
luckily my mum's asleep. or she'll go 'aiyo, what time already. everyday go out till so late, that's why results like that'


think absence really make the heart fonder.
that's the irony part of me. for the past few months i've been living alone. day in day out it's the same old thing. i'll find myself returning into an empty house. somehow, i wish that there'll be someone around to fill up this emptiness ; be it the empty house or the emptiness i felt at times.

now that mum's back. i find it weird.
maybe i've been used to living alone all these while, so when you return home and there's this someone wh'll ask you if you have taken your dinner or what, you somehow feel weird.

the other day i left my exam papers on the table and she saw it. did badly for the paper and i could tell that my mum's alittle sad bout it even though she still cock to me as per normal, asking me to go pour shit (where on earth can i pour shit in a place like spore?) if i didnt make it or what. and as usual she'll everytime say 'AH QI UH~, blah blah blah'
one good thing is, she never give me stress. she let me do the things i want and didnt have any unreasonable expections from me. but, this could be a bad thing as well. because she didnt give me all this shit ever since the day i become a student, all the more i shouldnt bo chap because it shows that she have trust and faith in me. though many a times, it's good to live for yourself and not others. but there'll be a point of time in certain stage of your life when you feel that life can never be like that. maybe, that's something ironic as well.

this time round, i really fare badly for the tests.
i admit i didnt put in that extra effort like the others. but at times, it's more to the quality rather than the quantity. the fact is, i cant concentrate! lately, there's so many problems, day in day out, it's the same old shit. and i'm not implying to only those never-ending-r/s or whatever one might call it problems.
just little problems here and there, when you add them up, it adds up to one whole big chunk of shit.


going back to where we're as a child.
maybe to some, that's the stage of life they wish to get back into.
but for me, i dont wish to, my life as a child isnt any better off as compared to now.
i know life's not perfect to begin with, but there're bound to have times when your thoughts just wonder off elsewhere and it lands on certain place, time, or people. that's the point of time when you came to realise, why some people are so much better off ; be it in whatever aspect, while others are so much different. i know if life's the same for everyone, the world will be an ugly place to live in. i'm not sadden by this difference, but rather, how some people are so fortunate, yet they take things for granted.


was reading qbao's blog just now. he's saying soemthing about having split personality.
i suppose for everyone, it's somehow the same.
for myself, i'm very different when i'm with friends and when i'm alone or together with people who's close to me. when a day full of haha-hehe-lalas with you friend end, it's back to reality.


had this conversation about 'life' with my mum few days back.
happen to touch on the topic about marriage. my mum has this traitional thinking of being bornt onto earth, grow up into an adult, get married, give birth, bring up the child, grow old and die is a cycle that everyone has to go through.
but getting married is something's that is so far away for me. ever since primary school, i know myself that i wont get married. it's a nightmare i guess. i never believe in everlasting love. that's all bullshit in my dictionary. two people might like or love each other. but when they try putting these two people together, made them live under the same roof, things might just go haywire and soon, they end up in divorce. if they have children, that's even worse. these kids might turn into juvenile and blah blah blah. the list just goes on. child is a god-sent gift. if youdont have what it takes to bring them up, then dont have them! it's like destroying a life or what. this apply to many other areas of life. same thing as, dont give promises when you dont mean it. dont say the things which you dont mean it at all. it'll maybe just crash a person's life. okay, maybe not that serious. but in one way or another, it's somehow link. maybe i sidetrack a little here. but the bottomline is, getting married is a whole bunch of shit to me.

hais! though i said this, sometimes i'll ask myself, if that's all shit in my eyes. how come i'll like a person so much. i really gave my everything the other time round. my heart, my soul, my everything. after all of these tuo-tuo-la-la things what i've gotten back is just pangs, tear and loss pof trust in people. though i;ve said it many times, but i still want to say, it's not always good to put in effort in everything you does!
the more effort you put in, maybe the more painful it will be. feels just like you have this bloodclot inside and no matter how hard you try to cough, so as to vomit this clot out, you cant seems to be able to do it. HAIS!

alright, maybe i sound a little shallow here, but that's what i personally feels.





the meet-up session was nice.
friends are the ones who made the world goes round.



so many people getting attached nowadays. peer pressure!

I want to get attached also! anybody want me?
omg, i sounded so cheapo, like i'm selling myself or what.. haa.

but serious la. sometimes i really feel like having this someone around you know.
someone to share happiness, sorrows or anything.


heh! maybe all the pressure and stress also since my As coming soon.
really dont know how am i going to conquere it.
looking at my current results, it realy feels yucky.
feels even more disappointed in myself when you find out that there's actually alot of people who's fighting this war with you even though they're done with it. all the moral support and stuff.

PENG YOU! (:


come to think of it, i think slacking inc anteen is really a waste of time.
maybe what aminah says is true, canteen is just a place where you get your food. if you're not eating, what for go to the canteen?
so, i'm going to do that! enter canteen when i feel like eating, other than that, i wont be around (:

i've been loner-fied.

maybe i need a loner boyfriend as well.
loner + loner = happily ever after.


anyone?!
please?
please come as soon possible.
gan qing shi ke yi pei yang de.
hah, ehhh i mean it okay.
not joking.
:D

just got back home quite some time back.
luckily my mum's asleep. or she'll go 'aiyo, what time already. everyday go out till so late, that's why results like that'


think absence really make the heart fonder.
that's the irony part of me. for the past few months i've been living alone. day in day out it's the same old thing. i'll find myself returning into an empty house. somehow, i wish that there'll be someone around to fill up this emptiness ; be it the empty house or the emptiness i felt at times.

now that mum's back. i find it weird.
maybe i've been used to living alone all these while, so when you return home and there's this someone wh'll ask you if you have taken your dinner or what, you somehow feel weird.

the other day i left my exam papers on the table and she saw it. did badly for the paper and i could tell that my mum's alittle sad bout it even though she still cock to me as per normal, asking me to go pour shit (where on earth can i pour shit in a place like spore?) if i didnt make it or what. and as usual she'll everytime say 'AH QI UH~, blah blah blah'
one good thing is, she never give me stress. she let me do the things i want and didnt have any unreasonable expections from me. but, this could be a bad thing as well. because she didnt give me all this shit ever since the day i become a student, all the more i shouldnt bo chap because it shows that she have trust and faith in me. though many a times, it's good to live for yourself and not others. but there'll be a point of time in certain stage of your life when you feel that life can never be like that. maybe, that's something ironic as well.

this time round, i really fare badly for the tests.
i admit i didnt put in that extra effort like the others. but at times, it's more to the quality rather than the quantity. the fact is, i cant concentrate! lately, there's so many problems, day in day out, it's the same old shit. and i'm not implying to only those never-ending-r/s or whatever one might call it problems.
just little problems here and there, when you add them up, it adds up to one whole big chunk of shit.


going back to where we're as a child.
maybe to some, that's the stage of life they wish to get back into.
but for me, i dont wish to, my life as a child isnt any better off as compared to now.
i know life's not perfect to begin with, but there're bound to have times when your thoughts just wonder off elsewhere and it lands on certain place, time, or people. that's the point of time when you came to realise, why some people are so much better off ; be it in whatever aspect, while others are so much different. i know if life's the same for everyone, the world will be an ugly place to live in. i'm not sadden by this difference, but rather, how some people are so fortunate, yet they take things for granted.


was reading qbao's blog just now. he's saying soemthing about having split personality.
i suppose for everyone, it's somehow the same.
for myself, i'm very different when i'm with friends and when i'm alone or together with people who's close to me. when a day full of haha-hehe-lalas with you friend end, it's back to reality.


had this conversation about 'life' with my mum few days back.
happen to touch on the topic about marriage. my mum has this traitional thinking of being bornt onto earth, grow up into an adult, get married, give birth, bring up the child, grow old and die is a cycle that everyone has to go through.
but getting married is something's that is so far away for me. ever since primary school, i know myself that i wont get married. it's a nightmare i guess. i never believe in everlasting love. that's all bullshit in my dictionary. two people might like or love each other. but when they try putting these two people together, made them live under the same roof, things might just go haywire and soon, they end up in divorce. if they have children, that's even worse. these kids might turn into juvenile and blah blah blah. the list just goes on. child is a god-sent gift. if youdont have what it takes to bring them up, then dont have them! it's like destroying a life or what. this apply to many other areas of life. same thing as, dont give promises when you dont mean it. dont say the things which you dont mean it at all. it'll maybe just crash a person's life. okay, maybe not that serious. but in one way or another, it's somehow link. maybe i sidetrack a little here. but the bottomline is, getting married is a whole bunch of shit to me.

hais! though i said this, sometimes i'll ask myself, if that's all shit in my eyes. how come i'll like a person so much. i really gave my everything the other time round. my heart, my soul, my everything. after all of these tuo-tuo-la-la things what i've gotten back is just pangs, tear and loss pof trust in people. though i;ve said it many times, but i still want to say, it's not always good to put in effort in everything you does!
the more effort you put in, maybe the more painful it will be. feels just like you have this bloodclot inside and no matter how hard you try to cough, so as to vomit this clot out, you cant seems to be able to do it. HAIS!

alright, maybe i sound a little shallow here, but that's what i personally feels.





the meet-up session was nice.
friends are the ones who made the world goes round.



so many people getting attached nowadays. peer pressure!

I want to get attached also! anybody want me?
omg, i sounded so cheapo, like i'm selling myself or what.. haa.

but serious la. sometimes i really feel like having this someone around you know.
someone to share happiness, sorrows or anything.


heh! maybe all the pressure and stress also since my As coming soon.
really dont know how am i going to conquere it.
looking at my current results, it realy feels yucky.
feels even more disappointed in myself when you find out that there's actually alot of people who's fighting this war with you even though they're done with it. all the moral support and stuff.

PENG YOU! (:


come to think of it, i think slacking inc anteen is really a waste of time.
maybe what aminah says is true, canteen is just a place where you get your food. if you're not eating, what for go to the canteen?
so, i'm going to do that! enter canteen when i feel like eating, other than that, i wont be around (:

i've been loner-fied.

maybe i need a loner boyfriend as well.
loner + loner = happily ever after.


anyone?!
please?
please come as soon possible.
gan qing shi ke yi pei yang de.
hah, ehhh i mean it okay.
not joking.
:D