it's a tiring day!
after i'm dismissed, bert and wen walked me home! so nice eh, we went to Chong Pang and both of them are so funny! they behave like an alien to chong pang. HAHAHA! as we're walking out of chong pang, bert said something,

bert: what's that on top?
wen: paper coke? those you burned?
bert: OOPS! what if they heard and follow me home.



uh anyway, i met up with Xav after that to clear my debt.
he quite nice la, kept asking me if i have enough for myself and he dont really need the money also, asked me to take my time. but maybe it's just that i dont feel good la. i'm not really very close to him also.


after that is rfc outing! steamboat at our fav AMK! i didnt step into amk for quite some time ehh. i ate 6 scoop of ice cream i think. those fish meat i ate amount up to one small shark? ( maybe). abit not worth it i think, cause urm, i only ate fish. but it's worth it when you think about the bonding session i spent with them.

different day same shit. along the way to stadium is the usual raping scene and random crap from them. haha, i feel like i'm back to last year in certain ways. like, we'll usually hang out at amk after school, the usual laughter and crap you hear along the way, blah blah blah.

met qbao casue he wanted to get samsung e360. didnt expect it's no longer in production. it's only around half a year and they stop producing it. qbao suggested going to sdp rally. so i didnt meet caleb in the end and went for the rally.

actually most of you will be thinking i'm supporting the opposition party or what.
but actually that's not the case, i just want to hear both sides of the story and gauge for myself who's right and who's wrong. watched the pap and worker's party clip last night and attended the sdp rally today. after listening to what they say, i think in politics, there isnt an exact right or wrong. of course, i have some unhappiness and questions on my mind bout how the government govern the country and stuff. what the opposition party mentioned was right. but at the same time, we have to give credit to PAP as well. we can't deny certain facts. look at spore, we're a young country with no natural resources or what. yet, we can achieve what we achieved in such a short period of time, w/o the government or should i say PAP? we wont be what we are today, maybe we'll still be the kind of backward country where you have to travel dont-know-how-far to use the toilet. by the way, the toilet is the kind where there's only hole, after you shit/urine, those waste will just drop into the river for whatever fish that's under to consume. if licing standard is like that, i suppose people wont be even bother to set up opposition party or what.


as for the mass media, i agree that there isnt really freedom-of-writing.
cause lots of things are not mentioned through the mass media. maybe it's a good thing to have two television station, at least there's competition and they'll sort of let its viewers know more things so as to earn more viewership.
actually there's alot of things i want to blog about ; about the election.

but i'm afraid i'll be sued or something, so i'd better keep it to myself.

HAHA. for something like politics, i think we should be concern about it.
afterall we're born in Spore, the future of the nation have a direct connection with us, but at the same time, i feel that we shouldn't be so into it to the extent that it becomes an obsession.
and yes. about the whole thing, i'm taking a neutral stand. not siding any party or what. ( i dont have to vote btw).





enough about all these.
tmr gonna be the day! so we can just sit back and watch how everything goes. (:

just like what i was telling bigballs just now.
five years ago when there's an election, i dont even bother bout it. i suppose at that time i'm more bother with which taiwan series is nice, what movie to watch, etc.
five years after that, i began to be more concern about all these that's happening around me.
what about five years later?




i think i enjoy interacting with people.
on our way to woodlands stadium just now, i was talking to qbao bout lots of things, life, politics, school, love like, etc. reckon the thing bout 'we learn as we grow' is very true. i dont remenber saying bout all these few years ago.




after 2months plus, i finally saw him just now. didnt see the usual childish him today. all he did was to sit at corner and watch them play soccer when his team was knocked out. or maybe he did show the crappy side of him but i didnt notice it since we didnt interact or meet face-to-face today. it've come to a point when he's just another person in the group. alright, this is how i feel for now, but actually to say the truth, on the inside i dont know bout it myself. am i really feeling that way or am i just forcing myself to believe things are like that since the more you think bout it, the sadder you become?
i've been living with him, as an imaginary person. dont really know how to go bout saying. things been like that since the day i no longer call him pingwee. to say the truth, i have no special feeling or what bout seeing him today. maybe it's because every now and then, what accompany me when i'm stoning is these images of him. something that was all in the past ; never gonna happen now. just few images here and there, so today, the sight of his legs running around the stadium was just another image.
i sound a little ________ here, but it's true. true that maybe i dont know how to differentiate real images of him in real life to those that i remenbered inside my head. sounds like of scary ya?


talking about moving on and stuff.
now, i assume i'm moving on but not yet moved on.
moving on from pingwee but not yet moved on from kenneth.
i admit every now and then, i reminisce at things bout us. i wish i can dreamt about it; at least in my dream, just give me that few minutes of sweetness. but i know all of these can only be thoughts or dream. it aint going to cross that line or what. cause pw is no longer there.

so paulin was saying, it's kind of sad to be living with like, a dead man inside?

haha! actually it's not really dead also. dont know how to explain cause i dont know it myself.

i dont know about lots of thing ; just like i dont know how come i'll blog bout random things like now.

something scary is,
at times, i wonder if i've lost the ability to understand myself and my thoughts,
the ability to comprehend what am i feeling.
it's just like, what you think you feel and what you actually feel when you're in the situation seems different.

for all you know, i might be going on and on about all the random things i've blogged bout in this entry and the next moment, i start to act against whatever i mentioned here.


such an irony.

we're living ironically. (advertising my blog)


HAH!

shall continue tmr.

the more i blog bout random things like this, more thoughts came to my mind.
i think if i dont stop, i can just go on and on.





anyway, deanna called me and told me she got into M.com in NTU! yes! happy for her that she got into the choice she all along wanted.
for the others, mic, qbao, andrea and gek eng.
hope you're happy with the course you got into as well.


(:



as for me, i'm 6months away from the entry test.
save me please.

it's a tiring day!
after i'm dismissed, bert and wen walked me home! so nice eh, we went to Chong Pang and both of them are so funny! they behave like an alien to chong pang. HAHAHA! as we're walking out of chong pang, bert said something,

bert: what's that on top?
wen: paper coke? those you burned?
bert: OOPS! what if they heard and follow me home.



uh anyway, i met up with Xav after that to clear my debt.
he quite nice la, kept asking me if i have enough for myself and he dont really need the money also, asked me to take my time. but maybe it's just that i dont feel good la. i'm not really very close to him also.


after that is rfc outing! steamboat at our fav AMK! i didnt step into amk for quite some time ehh. i ate 6 scoop of ice cream i think. those fish meat i ate amount up to one small shark? ( maybe). abit not worth it i think, cause urm, i only ate fish. but it's worth it when you think about the bonding session i spent with them.

different day same shit. along the way to stadium is the usual raping scene and random crap from them. haha, i feel like i'm back to last year in certain ways. like, we'll usually hang out at amk after school, the usual laughter and crap you hear along the way, blah blah blah.

met qbao casue he wanted to get samsung e360. didnt expect it's no longer in production. it's only around half a year and they stop producing it. qbao suggested going to sdp rally. so i didnt meet caleb in the end and went for the rally.

actually most of you will be thinking i'm supporting the opposition party or what.
but actually that's not the case, i just want to hear both sides of the story and gauge for myself who's right and who's wrong. watched the pap and worker's party clip last night and attended the sdp rally today. after listening to what they say, i think in politics, there isnt an exact right or wrong. of course, i have some unhappiness and questions on my mind bout how the government govern the country and stuff. what the opposition party mentioned was right. but at the same time, we have to give credit to PAP as well. we can't deny certain facts. look at spore, we're a young country with no natural resources or what. yet, we can achieve what we achieved in such a short period of time, w/o the government or should i say PAP? we wont be what we are today, maybe we'll still be the kind of backward country where you have to travel dont-know-how-far to use the toilet. by the way, the toilet is the kind where there's only hole, after you shit/urine, those waste will just drop into the river for whatever fish that's under to consume. if licing standard is like that, i suppose people wont be even bother to set up opposition party or what.


as for the mass media, i agree that there isnt really freedom-of-writing.
cause lots of things are not mentioned through the mass media. maybe it's a good thing to have two television station, at least there's competition and they'll sort of let its viewers know more things so as to earn more viewership.
actually there's alot of things i want to blog about ; about the election.

but i'm afraid i'll be sued or something, so i'd better keep it to myself.

HAHA. for something like politics, i think we should be concern about it.
afterall we're born in Spore, the future of the nation have a direct connection with us, but at the same time, i feel that we shouldn't be so into it to the extent that it becomes an obsession.
and yes. about the whole thing, i'm taking a neutral stand. not siding any party or what. ( i dont have to vote btw).





enough about all these.
tmr gonna be the day! so we can just sit back and watch how everything goes. (:

just like what i was telling bigballs just now.
five years ago when there's an election, i dont even bother bout it. i suppose at that time i'm more bother with which taiwan series is nice, what movie to watch, etc.
five years after that, i began to be more concern about all these that's happening around me.
what about five years later?




i think i enjoy interacting with people.
on our way to woodlands stadium just now, i was talking to qbao bout lots of things, life, politics, school, love like, etc. reckon the thing bout 'we learn as we grow' is very true. i dont remenber saying bout all these few years ago.




after 2months plus, i finally saw him just now. didnt see the usual childish him today. all he did was to sit at corner and watch them play soccer when his team was knocked out. or maybe he did show the crappy side of him but i didnt notice it since we didnt interact or meet face-to-face today. it've come to a point when he's just another person in the group. alright, this is how i feel for now, but actually to say the truth, on the inside i dont know bout it myself. am i really feeling that way or am i just forcing myself to believe things are like that since the more you think bout it, the sadder you become?
i've been living with him, as an imaginary person. dont really know how to go bout saying. things been like that since the day i no longer call him pingwee. to say the truth, i have no special feeling or what bout seeing him today. maybe it's because every now and then, what accompany me when i'm stoning is these images of him. something that was all in the past ; never gonna happen now. just few images here and there, so today, the sight of his legs running around the stadium was just another image.
i sound a little ________ here, but it's true. true that maybe i dont know how to differentiate real images of him in real life to those that i remenbered inside my head. sounds like of scary ya?


talking about moving on and stuff.
now, i assume i'm moving on but not yet moved on.
moving on from pingwee but not yet moved on from kenneth.
i admit every now and then, i reminisce at things bout us. i wish i can dreamt about it; at least in my dream, just give me that few minutes of sweetness. but i know all of these can only be thoughts or dream. it aint going to cross that line or what. cause pw is no longer there.

so paulin was saying, it's kind of sad to be living with like, a dead man inside?

haha! actually it's not really dead also. dont know how to explain cause i dont know it myself.

i dont know about lots of thing ; just like i dont know how come i'll blog bout random things like now.

something scary is,
at times, i wonder if i've lost the ability to understand myself and my thoughts,
the ability to comprehend what am i feeling.
it's just like, what you think you feel and what you actually feel when you're in the situation seems different.

for all you know, i might be going on and on about all the random things i've blogged bout in this entry and the next moment, i start to act against whatever i mentioned here.


such an irony.

we're living ironically. (advertising my blog)


HAH!

shall continue tmr.

the more i blog bout random things like this, more thoughts came to my mind.
i think if i dont stop, i can just go on and on.





anyway, deanna called me and told me she got into M.com in NTU! yes! happy for her that she got into the choice she all along wanted.
for the others, mic, qbao, andrea and gek eng.
hope you're happy with the course you got into as well.


(:



as for me, i'm 6months away from the entry test.
save me please.