just those random crap and serious talk with random people.
feels nice (:
after that was touring around Chong Pang with Jerry and Co.
HAHA! if want to increase number of viwership on friendster account, just put js pic since he's in such a high demand now.
friday skipped school cause the mense cramp is horrible.
think it runs in the genes or something, it' a norm to hear people in my family having serious cramp, the kind cramp till cannot even walk kind.
in the evening, i met gracians. didnt know Seoul Garden so kuku-nathan ex on a weekend. $27. WHAT THE DA PIAN! so we forcede outside to eat and eat even though the food's like at our throat. think if we want to cough have to tahan also. if not once we start coughing, all the food came out also. had those girly talks with them. HAI! we're all getting old. next year 20 already. so fast you know, and aku still SINGLE. ))))): now still okay, cause still got quite a few around me single also. but as time passes by, more and more people attached, i think will feel lonely or what. cause it's like, prolly when you ask people go out or what, they'll say want accompany their bf or what. HAI! this kind of thing really is hao-bo-bar-sai (cry no eyeshit) one. say already the bak-jiu-also turn red.
HAHA!
anyway, sat er.. dont know what i did.
think i met up woith paulin and jerry for some food in amk. feeling's good. cause i ddint step into that amk hawker which was once my home since 19feb2006. HAHAHAH not abd uh, still remenber the date, if only my memory is as good in my studies, i confirm-chop-chop top the school one!
today sun! went to nan's house for some retainees gathering.
pasta with cockles. past few days keep eating cockles. stomach so bloated, hopefully i'll lao sai soon. then i'll have jessica alba stomach. think stomach filled with shit now. ever heard of soemthing? lang-jia-hum, hum-jia-sai. meaning, people eat cockles, cockles eat shit. so i'm actually eating shit. my shit plus the shit cockles eat = alot of shit in my stomach!
toxic! maybe that's why i have two pimples on my face now. i feel so fat becase of the blated stomach. i think i look like the michelin man now, with all the fats bulging out.
sometimes i wonder why cant people be more 'real'.
it seems to be that lots of people out there are like putting on a mask or what.
maybe not only on the friendship kind of thing, but in all aspect. it's just so fake. hais! and sometimes, it's a chore to know too much things. cause one have to force themselves to keep this to themselves and stuff. yup. it's hard on them! ):
these days, i dont exactly know what am i searching for or what. come online it's also the same old random shit. msn's getting bored. everyday it's the same random shit with different random people. and what we get out of all these is nothing but just random crap and random er, surprises maybe?! one side of me really hopes that singnet can cut off my internet conenction fast. so that i wont on the com once i step into the house and waste my time doing those bo liao things online. guess i'm addicted to com/net. if i dont use my com when i enter the house, i'll feel weird. feels like you didnt wear panties at home or what. HAH! whatever!
so fast! june holiday is here, but being a yjcian, it's a norm for us to have two weeks of our holiday taken away by the school. ): been through it twice, plus this time round, it's THRICE! so i'm some sort immune to it already lah. hah! as much as i wish this kind of life where i have to go to school everyday to end fast, i somehow didnt want it to end that fast as well.
i know it's very ironic.
let's face it, we're all living ironically. HAHAH.
once this phrase of our lives past, we'll no longer wear school uniform. no more syudent concession of 45cents to everywhere in spore. no more socks with sneakers to school.
bear with me for a while, cause i'm going to just rattle on and on since i didnt update for few days.
at the beginning, you'll hear some not that close friend going NS. when they're in NS, you'll sometimes receive random calls from them, telling you some scary or scary stories bout NS life.
at the beginning it's kind of interesting because it seems like a new thing to you.
soon, the next batch of people went in. and when you receive random calls from them, the stories you heard is somewhat the same, except for maybe afew other stories.
then, this another batch went in and the stories all became so stale. cause it's past down. so when they said things like, eh have you heard of the so-and-so story, blah blah blah, you realise that all of those stories you've heard before. but anyway, we gotta admit it. spore is indeed a small place.
NS is friendster in reality. when they went in, they realise their bunk mate is actually another friend's freind blah blah blah. HAIYO!
he's going in few weeks later. but heard from my brother lck is mono-intake, so the training not as easy. had this talk with my brother just now. and we talked about NS?! HAHA, actually it's really kind of wasted for him. i think somehow deep inside he regretted. cause initially he signed a bond with mindef and was even some dont know what shit in tekong. (not too sure about the big shot in tekong thing though, maybe he's just boasting to me). he committed ome very serious offence and afetrwhich i dont know what happened. so now he's no longer inside and doing those Unusual producution thing. i didnt even know he's a sound engineer till today. but sound engineer?! how come still always anyhow talk people money and complain got no money?! okay, ack to main point. we talked about NS and he was telling me now NS not xiong at all. cause they're scare that some might die during training or what. if it's really xiong, it's only their sergent want to ter-kan them. last time there's this three person in his platoon that's super xia-lan(that's what he said). and it's late one night but he cant get to sleep. so he went into their room and wake them up for night training, while everyone's doing the usual run and water parade, he made this three person do some shit, eg, running from tree to tree doing some stupid things. and the reason behind this?! all because they got xia-lan face. HAHAH! so maybe it's a good thing that he's no longer with mindef, or else lots of people gonna suffer under him.
oh. i sidetrack again. back to him, going to NS. i rally cannot imagine him with no hair. cause he've got pointy ears like dumbo.
which, according to his grandfather, only those who's naughty will have it.
hah, he used to tell me he's very naughty when he's young. naughty to the extent that his auntie scold him everytime or what. but his grandfather really dote on him and even threatened to chase his auntie home if she continues scolding him. HAH! and the butt joke that made me laugh like no tmr.
the feeling of seeing him today and talk to him like normal is a little weird.
maybe because we didnt talk face to face like today for ali-baba long. the playful side of me start to tell him lies like im going to bangkok after nan house. (paulin have me the idea). he didnt believe it initially, but i said till damn convincing, even said my lagguage's with my friends and they're going to drive it to the airport first while i slowly made my way to the budget terminal. even came up with things such as taking tiger airway and the flight is 7pm. AHAH.
on my way home, im laughing to myself, about all these pranks. maybe just remiscing about how dumb he can sometimes be, remiscing bout all the 'really meh' he said with that not-convinced face of his. but i'll always end up bursting in laugter when he did that dumb action.
it's gonna be a year soon. somewhat feels like just few months back. but i know, all i can do now is just to reminisce about it. other than that, i can do nothing.
sometimes i really wonder if on that day i didnt pms-ed like what i did, would we still be together? really a very big mistake. the first time we quarrelled, actually not really quarrel, i'm just a little pissed and before i know it, it's over.
anyway, gone means gone already.
i dont hope for anything these days. it's just like starting, you'll hope to get back tgt. as time past by, these hope slowly diminished. just like the leaves on the tree, when autumn(or is it winter?) comes, these leaves slowly fell to the ground, one by one till there's no more.
when all these hope becomes nothing, the only comfort one could find is maybe only in dreams.
sounds a little crazy, but for me, that's rally the case.
sometimes i woke up feeling super happy. cause i tasted what happiness feels like in dreams. unlike the past, i would be sad everytime i woke up from it, cause it prove that it's only a dream. these days, it's more to like, at least i get to dream bout it kind of thing.
pathetic it may sounds, but really. i'm living with a non-exisitng thing.
just those nice memories. though we didnt take any picture when we're together, but i guess all these little things here and there is captured by the weak camera with lousy pixel called 'mind' and stored inside a folder called memories.
so much talk bout going to the past and stuff.
if i'm granted the wish of going back to where we were for only one-day. think i'll prolly die from all the heartattack. uh! so random. HAAAAAAA
IRONICCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCC!
late already. time to sleep.
have to go to school tmr.
-memories play like a flim without sound.
