tramatized.
istillam.
very.



i dont know if it's a trend or what to have people getting together in the month of june. if it is, just let it remain that way and be sure that the ending wont happen that fast. at the very least.



you know sometimes in life, it's really a chore to build everything from scratch again. and it's not a matter of whether you can anot. it's a matter of you-have-to-do-it kind of thing.

as much as i wanted to.
i know i cant.
this is the sad part.


for now. i dont know if i am doing the right thing. maybe i have to put myself in the person at the other end shoes and _______ you know?


you know how much i hated all these?
but when the going-s get tough, i know i still have to perserve and carry on.
i know i aint alone. there's people out there who feels the same way as me. i know i shouldnt be too persimistic about the whole thing.

yes. i shouldnt.
but that can only be a thought. you know when night falls, everything gets complicated again and maybe that explains why i never like the night as much as i used to.

A's coming and by now, even a five year kid know it's not a time to play around or what. i have less tha two months to compressed everything i learnt in year one and two into this tiny peanut brain of mine. i have literally zero idea bout how am i going to compress them ; especially since this peanut brain of mine seems to have only 10percent for studies and the rest is other things.

if inly human brain is like computer. you can compressed the data and when the system gets slow, you can defragment the files and stuff. from time to time, you can backup the chunk of files with an eternal disk drive or what.

how i wish that 90% can be thrown to that external disk drive.


but yes, face up to raelity.
it aint coming true.



maybe it's no longer an issue of whether to live up to other's expection or what. it's more to a must to live up to it, especially when the person is someone's who've been there for you all these while.


i really dont want to disappoint you again.




at least i'll try.







-eventhelastonestandinghadfallen.

tramatized.
istillam.
very.



i dont know if it's a trend or what to have people getting together in the month of june. if it is, just let it remain that way and be sure that the ending wont happen that fast. at the very least.



you know sometimes in life, it's really a chore to build everything from scratch again. and it's not a matter of whether you can anot. it's a matter of you-have-to-do-it kind of thing.

as much as i wanted to.
i know i cant.
this is the sad part.


for now. i dont know if i am doing the right thing. maybe i have to put myself in the person at the other end shoes and _______ you know?


you know how much i hated all these?
but when the going-s get tough, i know i still have to perserve and carry on.
i know i aint alone. there's people out there who feels the same way as me. i know i shouldnt be too persimistic about the whole thing.

yes. i shouldnt.
but that can only be a thought. you know when night falls, everything gets complicated again and maybe that explains why i never like the night as much as i used to.

A's coming and by now, even a five year kid know it's not a time to play around or what. i have less tha two months to compressed everything i learnt in year one and two into this tiny peanut brain of mine. i have literally zero idea bout how am i going to compress them ; especially since this peanut brain of mine seems to have only 10percent for studies and the rest is other things.

if inly human brain is like computer. you can compressed the data and when the system gets slow, you can defragment the files and stuff. from time to time, you can backup the chunk of files with an eternal disk drive or what.

how i wish that 90% can be thrown to that external disk drive.


but yes, face up to raelity.
it aint coming true.



maybe it's no longer an issue of whether to live up to other's expection or what. it's more to a must to live up to it, especially when the person is someone's who've been there for you all these while.


i really dont want to disappoint you again.




at least i'll try.







-eventhelastonestandinghadfallen.