it's really a nice feeling to meet your friends at work.
i was busy explaining enrolment for class 3 today when i heard someone calling my name. turns out to be qbao and i was really happy. managed to have a short chat with him and i finally know who huishan's dad is.

afterwhich i saw this girl who looks fimilar and she turns out to be serene. she hasn't change much afetr she left yj for cj.


okay, it's a hot day today and my thought keep running around.
from the brick walls and staircase, to the elderly walking around etc. seems like all these thoughts will come to me whenever i perspire under the sun. prolly not being friends at this point of time is the best way out? well, i've said this sentence for more than 1.5years. bet my readers here got so sick of it that they erase this sentence off their mind once they read it. i gave this thing a thought just now and i conclude that it's the only way out. i've tried a thousand and one methods but none works. i told you the other day i was kind of depressed because of the admission thing. thanks for dedicating this small portion to me in your blog anyway. actually, what contributes more to the depressed mode i'm in is -------.


oh well, thoughts can just be thoughts. especially since so many things have changed (your geeky smile looks the same though). everytime i look back, the image that came onto my mind is not the one that i saw on saturday.

am i really still so into you? or am i just longing to have a bf now? someone whom i want to care for and receive care and concern back? or ???

i'm grateful for the friends i have. in fact im VERY grateful. all of them are nice people and the care and concern they've shown really touches me all the time. yet, at times, i could feel this emptiness so close to me. prolly it could only be filled up by someone special out there who have appeared/yet to appear.


maybe out of the ten clubbers you've seen, 5 of them experience pangs as such and clubbing is just a way for them to break-free ; even for that few minutes/hours.
maybe out of the ten smokers you came across, 8 of them do so just to release the bottled frustrations of wound they had inside.
no doubt they can actually turn to 'healthier activities' instead of this. but, maybe they've already tried thousand and one methods that they could think of. it just so happen that the few that actually works for them are as follow.

maybe sometimes when i dont speak/talk much, i just need you to walk beside me. i'll really aprreciate it.
dont say things like -are you okay- to me, cause you'll only make those tears come down. if one day you ever spot me taking a puff, maybe all that i need is just understanding and not talks on how unhealthy it is. look at things from another side of view, maybe like others, your friend here feels better in doing so. that's only maybe. for you know that there's this high chance of -maybe- not taking place. also, maybe the maybe-s are just so redundant. they're just another word that falls into the extraneous category like what words like -if-only- and -sorry- ended up in.


i guess tomorrow will be a better day.
we gotta keep ourselves going no matter what. just like that this someone mention in his blog before, whether you're sad or happy, the sun gotta shine the next day anyway. but come to think of it, if you're really depressed, prolly even with the sunrays shining around you, you'll feel that you're trapped in darkness.

and yes,of course no matter what, we gotta overcome all these thoughts and bring ourselves out of the darkness ; for no one can help you except yourself.
okay, that's what i've been telling myself since grandfather's clock times.



alright, im turning in cause i feel a little grey now.
age caught up with me (menopause) and i guess i need endorphines to surpress the raging emo-hormones.


the weather is kind of unpredictable these days. hopefully those in camp dont fall sick.
especially jerry ong! he must be suffering in soc now. and of course, gohkarweiandtengezhou!



and this friend of mine whom i haven been catching up on lately.
i supposed he's down with high fever, (saw it on his msn)
i do hope he'll get well asap and get all charged up to enjoy his thailand trip, which falls on this week/next week i think.

GET WELL SOON
:)


if only i'm a doctor. %*&$#^*^. hahaha! BLAHHHHHHHH!

it's really a nice feeling to meet your friends at work.
i was busy explaining enrolment for class 3 today when i heard someone calling my name. turns out to be qbao and i was really happy. managed to have a short chat with him and i finally know who huishan's dad is.

afterwhich i saw this girl who looks fimilar and she turns out to be serene. she hasn't change much afetr she left yj for cj.


okay, it's a hot day today and my thought keep running around.
from the brick walls and staircase, to the elderly walking around etc. seems like all these thoughts will come to me whenever i perspire under the sun. prolly not being friends at this point of time is the best way out? well, i've said this sentence for more than 1.5years. bet my readers here got so sick of it that they erase this sentence off their mind once they read it. i gave this thing a thought just now and i conclude that it's the only way out. i've tried a thousand and one methods but none works. i told you the other day i was kind of depressed because of the admission thing. thanks for dedicating this small portion to me in your blog anyway. actually, what contributes more to the depressed mode i'm in is -------.


oh well, thoughts can just be thoughts. especially since so many things have changed (your geeky smile looks the same though). everytime i look back, the image that came onto my mind is not the one that i saw on saturday.

am i really still so into you? or am i just longing to have a bf now? someone whom i want to care for and receive care and concern back? or ???

i'm grateful for the friends i have. in fact im VERY grateful. all of them are nice people and the care and concern they've shown really touches me all the time. yet, at times, i could feel this emptiness so close to me. prolly it could only be filled up by someone special out there who have appeared/yet to appear.


maybe out of the ten clubbers you've seen, 5 of them experience pangs as such and clubbing is just a way for them to break-free ; even for that few minutes/hours.
maybe out of the ten smokers you came across, 8 of them do so just to release the bottled frustrations of wound they had inside.
no doubt they can actually turn to 'healthier activities' instead of this. but, maybe they've already tried thousand and one methods that they could think of. it just so happen that the few that actually works for them are as follow.

maybe sometimes when i dont speak/talk much, i just need you to walk beside me. i'll really aprreciate it.
dont say things like -are you okay- to me, cause you'll only make those tears come down. if one day you ever spot me taking a puff, maybe all that i need is just understanding and not talks on how unhealthy it is. look at things from another side of view, maybe like others, your friend here feels better in doing so. that's only maybe. for you know that there's this high chance of -maybe- not taking place. also, maybe the maybe-s are just so redundant. they're just another word that falls into the extraneous category like what words like -if-only- and -sorry- ended up in.


i guess tomorrow will be a better day.
we gotta keep ourselves going no matter what. just like that this someone mention in his blog before, whether you're sad or happy, the sun gotta shine the next day anyway. but come to think of it, if you're really depressed, prolly even with the sunrays shining around you, you'll feel that you're trapped in darkness.

and yes,of course no matter what, we gotta overcome all these thoughts and bring ourselves out of the darkness ; for no one can help you except yourself.
okay, that's what i've been telling myself since grandfather's clock times.



alright, im turning in cause i feel a little grey now.
age caught up with me (menopause) and i guess i need endorphines to surpress the raging emo-hormones.


the weather is kind of unpredictable these days. hopefully those in camp dont fall sick.
especially jerry ong! he must be suffering in soc now. and of course, gohkarweiandtengezhou!



and this friend of mine whom i haven been catching up on lately.
i supposed he's down with high fever, (saw it on his msn)
i do hope he'll get well asap and get all charged up to enjoy his thailand trip, which falls on this week/next week i think.

GET WELL SOON
:)


if only i'm a doctor. %*&$#^*^. hahaha! BLAHHHHHHHH!