hello journal.

im in school now but my heart feels like it's pumping at an ultra slow rate. i feel a little lifeless today. could it be due to the 2h sleep or is it something else. it's Sunday tomorrow and i dont feel good because i gotta work. Maybe Monday will be a better day since I'm free. No tuition no work no school. BUT, i think there wont be much difference anyway. Just trying to find reason to convince myself i'll be happy. When Tuesday comes, i'll be trapped in the cycle again. Maybe it's good that way? at least im occupied. Jerry is flying off on Wednesday. I think i will secretly miss lunchtime call though we always greet each other by 'it's you again uh' instead of 'hello'. Thursday im starting on Stats lecture and i gotta make sure im there early so that i dont have to go up to office to collect notes again. im sick of seeing the office lady. i guess she's sick of seeing me also. Prolly no subway session on friday and Saturday is here again.

Alright. i guess i will be fine after a long sleep. Im afloat now and it wont be too long before i got onto the shore. it's raining + sunny outside now and im going to see if there's rainbow in the sky. instead of chasing-cars, im going to chase after rainbow. sigh

-dead or alive.

hello journal.

im in school now but my heart feels like it's pumping at an ultra slow rate. i feel a little lifeless today. could it be due to the 2h sleep or is it something else. it's Sunday tomorrow and i dont feel good because i gotta work. Maybe Monday will be a better day since I'm free. No tuition no work no school. BUT, i think there wont be much difference anyway. Just trying to find reason to convince myself i'll be happy. When Tuesday comes, i'll be trapped in the cycle again. Maybe it's good that way? at least im occupied. Jerry is flying off on Wednesday. I think i will secretly miss lunchtime call though we always greet each other by 'it's you again uh' instead of 'hello'. Thursday im starting on Stats lecture and i gotta make sure im there early so that i dont have to go up to office to collect notes again. im sick of seeing the office lady. i guess she's sick of seeing me also. Prolly no subway session on friday and Saturday is here again.

Alright. i guess i will be fine after a long sleep. Im afloat now and it wont be too long before i got onto the shore. it's raining + sunny outside now and im going to see if there's rainbow in the sky. instead of chasing-cars, im going to chase after rainbow. sigh

-dead or alive.