higher the hope, greater the disappointment.

i look forward to this day for quite some time. you can hear me talking about it every now and then.

nevermind about the fact that i got locked out in the wee hours because i dont have keys with me. nevermind about heading to work early in the morning. nevermind about tuition after work.

i look forward to the match.


i thought maybe they can struggle off with a draw? since they've been good for the past five matches. then, the first goal came and we're reduced to ten men. i got so upset. but nevermind. i hold on to the belief though we played badly today. into the second half, torres and alonso seem to be picking up. when ronaldo's goal went over the net, my heart cool down - for a while. few seconds later, that goal came again and i know it's over. though i dont wish to, i have to admit the third goal is really nice. but that's a biggest blow. 3-0. prolly a big blow to the kop.

maybe i was trying to look for something to perk me up, by a little - at the very least.
things dont seem to be right lately, it keeps going to the left.
or maybe im just trying to fill up the spaces inside. leave the W, S and H aside. they can never be H anyway. at least for now.

you may think im mad.
im never a die hard fan. i dont scrimp and save, settling for bread everyday to make it to anfield. i dont watch every single match of theirs, but maybe 80% of it? put it this way. everyone has an ideal match or rather, 'dream' match on mind. for man city fans, prolly is thrashing man utd. for everton, prolly thrashing liverpool, etc etc.

for mine, it's just a simple win/draw.
something that's maybe kind of easy in the 1990s. not now anymore.
we got thrashed.

may the everton match be a nice one then.
yes im crazy.


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i've so much to say. but everything goes into the thin air when i see -
every now and then, i'll think about the bday celebration i told you about. the setting, the venue. but no. it's not coming true. it's not going to be real -anymore.

and u prolly forgot about it.


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higher the hope, greater the disappointment.

i look forward to this day for quite some time. you can hear me talking about it every now and then.

nevermind about the fact that i got locked out in the wee hours because i dont have keys with me. nevermind about heading to work early in the morning. nevermind about tuition after work.

i look forward to the match.


i thought maybe they can struggle off with a draw? since they've been good for the past five matches. then, the first goal came and we're reduced to ten men. i got so upset. but nevermind. i hold on to the belief though we played badly today. into the second half, torres and alonso seem to be picking up. when ronaldo's goal went over the net, my heart cool down - for a while. few seconds later, that goal came again and i know it's over. though i dont wish to, i have to admit the third goal is really nice. but that's a biggest blow. 3-0. prolly a big blow to the kop.

maybe i was trying to look for something to perk me up, by a little - at the very least.
things dont seem to be right lately, it keeps going to the left.
or maybe im just trying to fill up the spaces inside. leave the W, S and H aside. they can never be H anyway. at least for now.

you may think im mad.
im never a die hard fan. i dont scrimp and save, settling for bread everyday to make it to anfield. i dont watch every single match of theirs, but maybe 80% of it? put it this way. everyone has an ideal match or rather, 'dream' match on mind. for man city fans, prolly is thrashing man utd. for everton, prolly thrashing liverpool, etc etc.

for mine, it's just a simple win/draw.
something that's maybe kind of easy in the 1990s. not now anymore.
we got thrashed.

may the everton match be a nice one then.
yes im crazy.


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i've so much to say. but everything goes into the thin air when i see -
every now and then, i'll think about the bday celebration i told you about. the setting, the venue. but no. it's not coming true. it's not going to be real -anymore.

and u prolly forgot about it.


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