just sometime back i seriously gave signing on in the police force a thought. but after getting feedbacks here and there from people who didnt carry on after their bond is up, i reckon it's kind of hard for me to get in. especially so with my back problem, dont think they will want me + they say you will regret if u sign on. in short kum gong as my brother put it. :X

so, i gave teaching a thought. but i realised, i'll get very emotionally attached to my kids. tutoring and teaching is so different. cause when you're tutoring, it's usually one to one, or one to two at most. but for teaching, it's like one to thirty odd kids. so being emotionally attached to them is a big no no.

emotionally attached as in the sense of getting all worried for them and heart aches alittle for them. sounds crazy, but that's what is happening to me right now. previously, i mentioned about my ah lian kid who got suspended for dont know how many times and we've to communicate in ah lian language to bring across what we want to say. well, it works and we're more like friends now (i suppose). then, comes the lonely girl who's home alone everyday. i got worried for her and even text her to ask how's she is doing and stuff. (she prolly thought im a lesbin or what). then comes this p6 boy.

he's quite a playful boy. during lesson, he'll always take out his crocodile model/some other toys to scare me. he prolly thinks im the kind of gu niang tutor who'll go round screaming when they see the rubber cockroach. but too bad, im not. so usually, i will grab whatever in his hands, confiscate it and return it to him after lesson. then........... he will give me the SIANZZZXXXX look.

what's special about this kid is, he's someone who wants attention. not because he's an action bedeh, but because his parent is a workaholic and out of the so many times i went over to his place, the only time i saw his parents was the second lesson (on a sun).

so today i went over, he's alone at home as usual. with his grandma actually, but his grandma doesnt really talk to him and his brothers are out (doesnt matter much since they call him loser. ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ). just woke up from his nap and still in a daze. so i get him to wash his face, sit down and talk abit of cock with him before i start. he started saying sorry to me because he didnt know sup classes ended so late today. when he got home, it was coming to 5. did my homework and dozed off for an hour.

i dont know why, but my heart aches for a while. cause i see the tiredness in his eyes and when he's saying sorry, he looks really very sorry abt it. SIGH. got me thinking kids these days have zero freedom. what was i doing when psle is approaching? i remember i did something silly. went to the chinese calendar, looked at my zodiac for the day (psle date), if it's a JI, i will relax and watch tv, if it's a 'XIONG', i will read up my txtbk. that's all! kids these days have stacks of assessment books to complete. sup classes after sch everyday, etc,

school workload aside, the other day he went to the doctor. but he didnt know he has got drug allergy. ended up with puffy eyes the next day after taking the medicine. kids of his age prolly has parents who will call them to have their medicine every few hours, but for him, he has to set alarm and wake up in the middle of the night to take his medication.

the saddest part is, i asked him ' jin tian ni you yi ke ren zai jia ah'
he replied. 'mei ban fa. all along also like that'
(looked at the floor with a sad face)



boooooooooooooooooooooohooooooooooooooooooohoooooooooooooooooooo.

feeling down now because of a kid.
like that how to be teacher?!
if i were to be a teacher, i will be VERY busy/depressed.
not because of the workload or what. is because, there's 30 odd kids and i will emo over all of them. everyday stare at the wall and emo.



and.......................

i think i will be bias towards those kids with very nice eyes and dimples.
aiyo. i think kids with dimples so cute.



dan hill's sometimes when we touched is one of the nicest song around.
<3

just sometime back i seriously gave signing on in the police force a thought. but after getting feedbacks here and there from people who didnt carry on after their bond is up, i reckon it's kind of hard for me to get in. especially so with my back problem, dont think they will want me + they say you will regret if u sign on. in short kum gong as my brother put it. :X

so, i gave teaching a thought. but i realised, i'll get very emotionally attached to my kids. tutoring and teaching is so different. cause when you're tutoring, it's usually one to one, or one to two at most. but for teaching, it's like one to thirty odd kids. so being emotionally attached to them is a big no no.

emotionally attached as in the sense of getting all worried for them and heart aches alittle for them. sounds crazy, but that's what is happening to me right now. previously, i mentioned about my ah lian kid who got suspended for dont know how many times and we've to communicate in ah lian language to bring across what we want to say. well, it works and we're more like friends now (i suppose). then, comes the lonely girl who's home alone everyday. i got worried for her and even text her to ask how's she is doing and stuff. (she prolly thought im a lesbin or what). then comes this p6 boy.

he's quite a playful boy. during lesson, he'll always take out his crocodile model/some other toys to scare me. he prolly thinks im the kind of gu niang tutor who'll go round screaming when they see the rubber cockroach. but too bad, im not. so usually, i will grab whatever in his hands, confiscate it and return it to him after lesson. then........... he will give me the SIANZZZXXXX look.

what's special about this kid is, he's someone who wants attention. not because he's an action bedeh, but because his parent is a workaholic and out of the so many times i went over to his place, the only time i saw his parents was the second lesson (on a sun).

so today i went over, he's alone at home as usual. with his grandma actually, but his grandma doesnt really talk to him and his brothers are out (doesnt matter much since they call him loser. ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ). just woke up from his nap and still in a daze. so i get him to wash his face, sit down and talk abit of cock with him before i start. he started saying sorry to me because he didnt know sup classes ended so late today. when he got home, it was coming to 5. did my homework and dozed off for an hour.

i dont know why, but my heart aches for a while. cause i see the tiredness in his eyes and when he's saying sorry, he looks really very sorry abt it. SIGH. got me thinking kids these days have zero freedom. what was i doing when psle is approaching? i remember i did something silly. went to the chinese calendar, looked at my zodiac for the day (psle date), if it's a JI, i will relax and watch tv, if it's a 'XIONG', i will read up my txtbk. that's all! kids these days have stacks of assessment books to complete. sup classes after sch everyday, etc,

school workload aside, the other day he went to the doctor. but he didnt know he has got drug allergy. ended up with puffy eyes the next day after taking the medicine. kids of his age prolly has parents who will call them to have their medicine every few hours, but for him, he has to set alarm and wake up in the middle of the night to take his medication.

the saddest part is, i asked him ' jin tian ni you yi ke ren zai jia ah'
he replied. 'mei ban fa. all along also like that'
(looked at the floor with a sad face)



boooooooooooooooooooooohooooooooooooooooooohoooooooooooooooooooo.

feeling down now because of a kid.
like that how to be teacher?!
if i were to be a teacher, i will be VERY busy/depressed.
not because of the workload or what. is because, there's 30 odd kids and i will emo over all of them. everyday stare at the wall and emo.



and.......................

i think i will be bias towards those kids with very nice eyes and dimples.
aiyo. i think kids with dimples so cute.



dan hill's sometimes when we touched is one of the nicest song around.
<3